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Death Is Better Than The Wrong Body
Death Is Better Than The Wrong Body
Some transgenders but not all trans will go though depression, maybe self harm and suicidal thoughts.
I'm one of those trans that go though depression, I self harm and think of killing myself cos I'm not in my body and I can't live like this for any longer.
Even tho I want to die, I always think to myself one day I will become the person I was suppose to be even if it will takes years but when it's all over with life might be better.
There are times where death is better than living to see my real self but I stop the suicidal thoughts by self harming.
I know this isn't the answer but it's my answer.
I wish it didn't have to be this way but it is what it is.
I hope you are not like me, depressed, self harming, thinking of death 24/7, got anxiety and is negative.
I hope you get though this and get where you were suppose to be.
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Packing For The First Time
Packing For The First Time
When you start packing at first you need to pick your packer and what size, I got my packer from the pure gender website and I got a small packer because I've learned bigger isn't always better. I got a harness with my packer because I read somewhere that your packer might fall out of place and onto the floor which will be really embarrassing while in public.
When my packer arrived for the first couple of weeks I didn't put it on but then I felt ready to try it on. At first it didn't look right so I got my mum to help me and now it looks ok but it only doesn't look natural right now because I haven't gotten use to it yet.
While I walked around the house with it on I thought it would feel weird but actually it feels like it's not there, it feels natural. I do feel the harness sometimes and that feels weird and a bit unconformable but I rather feel that then see/feel my packer fall out.
There are many sizes, brands and ways you can get/wear a packer, such as yo
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Binding For The First Time
Binding For The First Time
I just got my first binder today and I couldn't wait to get it on. It was hard to put it on but my mum helped me. My binder is different than I thought it would be, it had hooks on the side, they looked like bra hooks but there were 8 hooks and 3 lines. My mum hooked the first one which won't be that tight, she did this so I would get use to wearing it. I didn't expect it to be more conformable than a bra.
After putting it on I realized how hard it was to breath in it and after about two maybe 3 hours when I breath it hurt. I know what to do while wearing it like, don't wear it for more than 8 hours and while wearing it stretch and cough every 25-30 minutes, when I first did that nothing really changed but after the second time it made breathing a little better.
My mum thought it would be a good idea to slip it off and on so we wouldn't have to hook it on everyday but I know that would be really hard. I haven't taken the binder off yet.
I know it will be a fe
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Help For FTM Transgenders
Help For FTM Transgenders
Since I'm a female to male transgender I only know what FTMs go though and what they can do before they go on hormones. The wait is long and it feels like you won't change but there is things that you can do and go to while waiting.
LGBT Groups:
You can look for a LGBT group in your area so you can be with people who are like you and make friends that understand what you go though. I go to one on Mondays at 6 pm until 8 pm and it does help and it will boost my confidence.
Binding:
A binder is a tight vest that makes your chest look flatter which gives you the appearance of a boy. There are things you have to do and not do while binding such as don't wear it for more than 8 hours, don't use bandages while binding cos you will break your ribs, stretch and cough every 25-30 cos the binder presses down on your chest and take it off before going to bed.
Packing:
There are many people pack in different ways like using a rolled up sock but you can get one online. Som
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Real Name Vs Fake Name
Real Name Vs Fake Name
You have two names your real one and your birth name.
Birth Name:
You have been called this name all your life but you hate it, you hate being called it and hate hearing it. People know you by this name and when you tell them you want them to call you by your real name they will accidentally call you by your birth name, that will happen.
Real Name:
Your family and friends are still trying to call you by this name but they call you by your birth name but most of the time they call you by your real name. You are more happy hearing people call you by this name and all you had to do was tell them and they did what made you happy.
All transgenders have two names the name they were given (birth name) and the name they choose (real name).
I have that as well, we all do.  
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You Will Get There
You Will Get There
The wait is long
And you feel like your going no where
You told people
But they don't seem to be much help
You sit there doing nothing
You wish you were the opposite gender
You learn about transgenders
You go to LGBT groups
It feels like you will never be yourself
But you will get there
It will take years but hang in there.
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Be You
Be You
If you know you are in the wrong body don't hide it, if you hide the real you then you will be stuck as fake you and you know you would hate that.
Tell your family, teacher or friends, you don't even have to tell that many people but at least tell someone you trust. They might not understand but they will support you and they will help you so don't be scared.
You don't have to go to school/college/work as the real you if you are scared of others rejecting you but you can always go out in public and in your house as the real you cos some people in the public won't even notice and you are safe in your house.
Don't be scared to be you.
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Transgender poem.
I hate this name.
I hate this body.
I hate these hips.
I hate these breasts.
I hate the reflection.
I hate being in the closet.
I hate living 2 different lives.
I hate having to go into girls bathrooms.
I hate having to change in the girl's locker room.
I hate having to look at my name on school work.
I hate meeting new people.
I hate hearing 'she' and 'her'.
I hate trying to explain to people.
I hate feeling so depressed.
I hate being the 'boyish girl'.
I hate not being able to wear my boxers because I'm afraid people will ask questions when I'm in the locker room.
I hate being so awkward.
I hate getting undressed.
I hate my voice.
I hate how my hair never feels short enough.
I hate the way I fit into clothes.
I hate having to wear bras.
I hate leaving the house.
I hate the thought of my friends parent's not letting me over if they knew.
I hate the thought of losing friends.
I hate the thought of parts of my family disowning me, and ignoring me.
I hate the thought that some of my fami
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Transgender
I am stuck in a body I do not want. I wish to change. I hate to look in the mirror everyday seeing a shape I was forced into.  
I hate:
These breasts
This flat chest
This empty air between my legs
This unnecessary stick hanging down
This too long hair no matter what I do
This hair that always seems too short
These stupid skirts I want to burn
These too baggy jeans I'm forced into
Being a female
Being a male
I want to walk down the streets and feel free.
Feel at ease.
The way I'm supposed to be.
I want to feel normal.
Is that so wrong?
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Death Is Better Than The Wrong Body

Some transgenders but not all trans will go though depression, maybe self harm and suicidal thoughts.

I'm one of those trans that go though depression, I self harm and think of killing myself cos I'm not in my body and I can't live like this for any longer.

Even tho I want to die, I always think to myself one day I will become the person I was suppose to be even if it will takes years but when it's all over with life might be better.

There are times where death is better than living to see my real self but I stop the suicidal thoughts by self harming.

I know this isn't the answer but it's my answer.

I wish it didn't have to be this way but it is what it is.

I hope you are not like me, depressed, self harming, thinking of death 24/7, got anxiety and is negative.

I hope you get though this and get where you were suppose to be.
Death Is Better Than The Wrong Body
I've been meaning to make something about trans having depression and since I was feeling depressed and suicidal I thought it would be a good time to talk about it, I hope this helps you. 
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Packing For The First Time

When you start packing at first you need to pick your packer and what size, I got my packer from the pure gender website and I got a small packer because I've learned bigger isn't always better. I got a harness with my packer because I read somewhere that your packer might fall out of place and onto the floor which will be really embarrassing while in public.

When my packer arrived for the first couple of weeks I didn't put it on but then I felt ready to try it on. At first it didn't look right so I got my mum to help me and now it looks ok but it only doesn't look natural right now because I haven't gotten use to it yet.

While I walked around the house with it on I thought it would feel weird but actually it feels like it's not there, it feels natural. I do feel the harness sometimes and that feels weird and a bit unconformable but I rather feel that then see/feel my packer fall out.

There are many sizes, brands and ways you can get/wear a packer, such as you can have a joey pouch instead of a harness.    
Packing For The First Time
I've started packing today and I thought to share how it feels and surprisingly it feels natural, I hope this helps you. 
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I haven't posted for a while cos I've been going though some things and haven't thought of anything to make. 
Binding For The First Time

I just got my first binder today and I couldn't wait to get it on. It was hard to put it on but my mum helped me. My binder is different than I thought it would be, it had hooks on the side, they looked like bra hooks but there were 8 hooks and 3 lines. My mum hooked the first one which won't be that tight, she did this so I would get use to wearing it. I didn't expect it to be more conformable than a bra.

After putting it on I realized how hard it was to breath in it and after about two maybe 3 hours when I breath it hurt. I know what to do while wearing it like, don't wear it for more than 8 hours and while wearing it stretch and cough every 25-30 minutes, when I first did that nothing really changed but after the second time it made breathing a little better.

My mum thought it would be a good idea to slip it off and on so we wouldn't have to hook it on everyday but I know that would be really hard. I haven't taken the binder off yet.

I know it will be a few days til my chest will look flatter but when I look at my chest I do see a change, to me it looks a little flatter.

My mum told me that I would need to put my bra on when I take the binder off, i'm sure I can keep my bra off when my chest is too flat for a bra and hopefully that would be in about a week.

I am worried that my classmates in college will notice a change and ask me why my hair is so short and how did my chest got flatter, I guess all I can do is hope they don't ask or notice.

Remember this while binding!:

Don't wear it for more than 8 hours.
Stretch and cough every 25-30 minutes.
Don't sleep in your binder.
Don't swim in your binder.
Don't exercise in your binder.  
Binding For The First Time
This is my first time binding and I thought to share how it felt for me, if you don't get why you need to stretch and cough while binding it's so you won't faint cos you didn't get enough air, I hope this helps you. 
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Horrible Reminders That I'm/We Are Female

I'm years away from being my true self but there are times where I look and feel like a man but there are other times where a female thing comes alone and says "you are female".

Bras:

Every morning it's hard for me to get dress cos I know I would need to take my shirt off and put on my bra. I haven't started binding yet so I still need to wear my uncomfortable bra. While i'm wearing my bra you will notice I shuffle my chest a little and I push my sides a little cos i'm so uncomfortable while wearing it. Every night I feel a little like myself since I need to take my bra off.

Periods:

Every female have that time of the month but for a trans man it's worst cos it's a reminder you are a girl. I have lots of trouble with coping with my periods cos again i'm so uncomfortable and it's the worst reminder that i'm female. If you have this problem do what I did and go on the pill, it stops your period for 3 weeks but you would need to have to stop taking it for a week but your period would be lighter.

Identity:

Even if you are male inside you are female outside and people will say she and her to address you. You are not allowed in the boy's bathroom cos your identity say girl. You can easily change your identity by binding, packing, dressing as a male and getting your hair cut short but female things will happen to you like your period. People have known you as a girl for a long time and now you are changing to a boy but some people might not accept this.

Name:

You are given a female name at birth and you are be called that name for years but then you change it to male. You tell your family and they try to call you by it but they accidentally call you her or your girl name. In high school or college no one knows you are trans so they call you by your female name.

The first two are aimed at me cos I don't know how you feel about them but the last two can be how you feel.

All female to males will understand this.
Horrible Reminders That I'm/We Are Female
I put mature content cos there is a thing I put in only women get and I thought some people would be uncomfortable to read it, I hope you like it. 
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Hi everyone

I'm a transgender, right now i'm in a female body but in a few years time I will be in my male body. While i'm going though the changes I will be sharing information about transgenders to help others understand how we feel.

I will be writing about trans people, what we feel/go though and help you understand us.

I don't mind how many watchers, comments or faves I get as long as my content help someone i'm happy.

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Hi welcome to DA
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Thank you 
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Welcome
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Hi! Glad to know there's another FTM here.
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Hi and same here, i'm happy to help you when you need it :) (Smile) 
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Hello there! Welcome to DeviantArt! Hope you'll enjoy your time here.Llama Emoji-09 (Drinking Tea) [V1] 
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Thank you very much 
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welcome to DA I hope you like it here and good luck with your transgender things I think it will be very usfull for other people who are struggling with these questions 

If any questions (about DA) you can ask me =D
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Thank you and I do hope to help others who are like me. 

Ok, thanks :) (Smile) 
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